i want you to call me, i want you to text me, i want you to love me, i want you to regret, i want you to miss me, i want you to be here for me, i want you to fight for me, i want you to hold me, i want you to be gone....

i want i want i want.. but i have no idea whats going on in your head... hate that fact..
now that i decited that i will go to that "i-know-all-your-shit-and-i-am-right" lady, i cant wait.. i wanna go right now.. today.. but i cant.. it sucks...

im still sick yo.. keelontsteking and shit.. it makes me think alot and i dont wanna think bout that shit..

you know what my problem is? we had the best time ever.. we were so in love and he asked me of ik met hem wilde samenwonen.. 3 fucking times!! alles was perfect... ennu.. now.. it feels like everything was surreal.. het was een droom en het is er nooit geweest.. dat hij er nooit is geweest.. we were together every day and now.. ik heb hem 3 weken niet gezien.. longest i didnt see him.. thats okay.. ik ga er niet dood aan maar als je erover nadenkt... hey.. freaking weird..

a girlfriend of mine, she had the same shit with her man 2 years ago.. precies hetzelfde.. die van haar zei dezelfde dingen en was ook confused and scared to open up.. and they're together.. and she had the same strong feeling.. funny no?

he is pushing his feelings including me away...

but hey.. call me you stupid fuck!! im confused too..

maar heb nog nooit zo sterk iets gevoeld.. he will be back.. just wanna make sure..